The first week of school feels like it was forever ago...
I was in a new city, I didn't know anybody, I was going to a new school and everything was in another language. Although I never faced any severe problems with handling any of these changes, it amazes me to see how much all of this has changed.
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Muenster! <3 |
School's also going well. I understand the classes a little more everyday and I'm beginning to participate (though it's still not as often as I would like.) I do all of my homework and class work. When I don't understand something, I look at my notes or a textbook and I translate it into English or Google the material. I took not all, but some of my exams. These are NOT tests, but exams that take place 4X a year, similar to finals but way longer. 2 1/2 to 3 1/2 hours long... They're brutal. I took my math, English (there's the shock of a lifetime,) European history, and biology. I've only gotten my English grade back (which obviously was the one I was the most nervous about ;) and I got the highest grade possible. But my other exams will humor me. I don't think I did too well on my math one, but I think my history and bio ones went well. "Well" when you put everything into perspective. I took both of the tests in German and studied (in English and in German) just like I would in the US, but I'm clearly not going to get the same grades as I do at home. But I tried my best and that's what matters here. I'm here to learn German and German culture, not calculus.
Friend-wise, I've been very fortunate. I've met so many amazing people who've taken me under their wings and have been absolutely wonderful with everything. They've invited me to their parties and activities, allowed me to hangout with them at school during our breaks, and most importantly, they've been patient with me. I'm so thankful for that. I only hope that I not only continue to meet more people, but also strengthen the friendships already forming! As my German improves, I understand and participate a little bit more, but I still find it challenging to talk in a group. I tend to focus on trying to understand the conversation and I forget to speak or I don't have time to speak as the conversations are going so fast. But by December, I hope to alleviate that problem!
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Aasee, the prettiest place to go running. |
Everything's been going well, but I still want to make it better. So I'm going to attempt to tackle one big goal in the next two months: speaking. I need to be speaking more often and learning new vocabulary (esp. verbs.) If I do that, I know that my experience will be even better and everything will go better (school, grades, friends...) I need to make a better effort to speak more frequently, try new things (and not be afraid to ask for help), and speak less English.
But I'm excited for the next quarter! Bring it on!
You know, I keep forgetting to comment as you post, Kiki - for a guy who lives on blogs for a living these days, I should know better but, as your father, it's always hard to start because there are so many feelings.
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But here you are the halfway point! You've been gone since June and life with the Beckmanns, I can't think of a better family for you to be living life with. Awesome!
This is a interesting, insightful 'look-back' and overview of the whole experience...you have been doing extraordinary accomplishments, far and away from others your age the past year and half and your mother and I are very, very proud of you....
I have to add this: when I was studying w/ Bernhard in Tuebingen, I was *terrible* about speaking German - I was SOOO in over my head, as I've told you many times before.
ReplyDeleteWith only one year of German, taking classes with no formal program to help me, I was very much on my own in Germany, I was incredibly self-conscious about how dreadful my speaking German was. Bernhard was a harbor of strength and mental stability for me - though, of course, I spoke only English with him. ;-P
I *totally* understand what you are going through, Kiki - but I'm so happy that you have resolved to push forward and make your personal goal for this home stretch to focus on breaking through these limitations of being concerned with how others perceive you(when, in fact, they really don't...)...and really GO FOR IT with speaking more.
Ich weiss ich sagte, dass es gemeint - aber ich bin doch sehr stolz auf sie!
Ich weiss bestimmt, dass du noch mehr sprechen kannst, und wirst!! Ich freue mich sehr auf unsere Gespräche, wenn du zurück kehrst!! Du wirst total fliessend sein! Danke für die Geschichten - deine Erfahrungen sehen unglaublich aus!!! Viel Spass noch! Wir sehen uns in Januar. Frau Roper
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